blogger's block...
well. it seems as though i've been living in a black, black cloud lately.
warning: the rest of this may seem a bit whiny. bear in mind that i am fully aware your life sucks, too...you might be having a bad day, your family is suffering some hardship, etc. i know all these things. i realize my struggles may pale in comparison to what you're experiencing, so if you don't want to read any farther, don't. the truth is...if i whine about it, maybe i'll feel better. so there!!
i've had horrible blogger's block. my thoughts are clogged. maybe i am just unwilling to share them with you, dear reader. maybe the inside of my mind is so scary, such a vault, that i don't want to let you in...
whatever the case may be. i can't write. and it sucks. i can't do the self-portrait challenge. i can't get caught up with housework and laundry. at the end of the day...i've got very little left to give to the people i love the most: my kids and paul.
it's horribly selfish... and i hope that someone can a- relate and b- forgive me. sometimes i just want to be responsible for ME. i don't want to have to take care of others.
i've watched the secret a bunch of times. and this power of attraction thing isn't working for me. i hope it's a phase. it seems that just when i think i am getting caught up financially, i get hit with yet another setback.
it's been a struggle being a divorced mom. day care is expensive. and i think i am just worn down.
the sun was out today. it's supposed to be warm all week. i get to play golf on tuesday...
and even though i feel down right now...at least i can feel. at least i am alive. i am thankful for that.
now...go get a drink... hopefully an alcoholic one..or at least a caffeinated one...and hope the old, funny, sarcastic jess comes back soon.
warning: the rest of this may seem a bit whiny. bear in mind that i am fully aware your life sucks, too...you might be having a bad day, your family is suffering some hardship, etc. i know all these things. i realize my struggles may pale in comparison to what you're experiencing, so if you don't want to read any farther, don't. the truth is...if i whine about it, maybe i'll feel better. so there!!
i've had horrible blogger's block. my thoughts are clogged. maybe i am just unwilling to share them with you, dear reader. maybe the inside of my mind is so scary, such a vault, that i don't want to let you in...
whatever the case may be. i can't write. and it sucks. i can't do the self-portrait challenge. i can't get caught up with housework and laundry. at the end of the day...i've got very little left to give to the people i love the most: my kids and paul.
it's horribly selfish... and i hope that someone can a- relate and b- forgive me. sometimes i just want to be responsible for ME. i don't want to have to take care of others.
i've watched the secret a bunch of times. and this power of attraction thing isn't working for me. i hope it's a phase. it seems that just when i think i am getting caught up financially, i get hit with yet another setback.
it's been a struggle being a divorced mom. day care is expensive. and i think i am just worn down.
the sun was out today. it's supposed to be warm all week. i get to play golf on tuesday...
and even though i feel down right now...at least i can feel. at least i am alive. i am thankful for that.
now...go get a drink... hopefully an alcoholic one..or at least a caffeinated one...and hope the old, funny, sarcastic jess comes back soon.
eloquently composed by jess at 8:48 PM
3 Comments:
UGGIE.
Been there, done that. It sucketh a duck.
Don't worry about doing a damn thing. We'll survive, though we miss your wit.
I have writing block, too. My posts are pretty lame lately and I haven't done SPC in like, three months. :(
Everyone has their dark days and it's okay to be a little selfish. Have your drink and just take care of yourself!
as long as you know that you are greatly loved... it should help. oh, and i'd totally take you out for mucho drinks if i were in town...
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